hiah... i saw HIM today.. and i really dunno what i'm feeling anymore. i tot i'd put the past behind me.. but it seems like i haven't forgotten.. it's just buried memories and some part of me really really doesn't wanna let go.. he's still with that pig and though i pretend it doesn't matter i noe that deeo down inside it still does. and i really hate myself for not being able to forget. hiah. i sound so lame here... i'm sorry.. i'm really not like this usually.. it's just tt seeing him evoked alot of buried memories. what if we hadn't broken up, what if i'd been nicer, what if we'd never started in the first place. hiah~