TLP feels kinda terribly useless. sigh.
and in the wards today, there was this dying pt surrounded by her family. she was wearing the oxygen mask thing and trying very hard to speak, producing only gasping sounds. only once did i hear her say a full sentence.
then i heard buddhist chantings in the background.

it was rather traumatic, and it made me kinda sad, remembering grandpa and how i wasnt at his bedside when he passed away.

it's so different to hear that XXX has passed away, and to actually witness the passing of a real live person. sigh. working in hospitals is depressing.

and TLP screwed up everything she did today. sigh. TLP is demoralised. TLP does not want to bother about what others think. roar. sob. TLP is sadddd.