dearest blog,
this OT course is turning me paranoid.. it's like before i joined this course, i never worried whether i'd suddenly turn into a schizo or develope OCD or some mental illness, or whether i'd get into an accident or get a stroke or heart attack or diabetes and an amputation or whether i'd give birth to a child with cerebral palsy or downs or autism.. nooo.. befor i joined e course i just happily assumed that life would be nice and rosy. it's like how many of us actually think about such things anyway?
well.. now i do.. and it can really freak a person out if u really dwell on it. its like u never know when something will happen and so many of these things cant really be predicted. and how many of us actually think about e ppl who get into road accidents and survive and what happens to them?
no, most of them do not happily spend a few days in hospital then come out and live their lives happily ever after with no changes to their former lives. an accident can really upsset ur whole entire life, not just urs, but everybody ard u too. and it's really very saddening how a whole healthy person can, in one second, transform into a disabled one for life. sigh.
i think if i really have to get involved in a serious acccident i'd rather die and make things easier for everyone including myself. e amt of emotional trauma and time and care giving involved is freaking enormous.. plus e $ required for treatment and rehab and equiptment and what not.. sigh
disabled ppl and their caregivers really really really do deserve our respect and admiration. yes. they do.

and p.s. i love my friends.. they didnt kill me like i thought they would! whoo hoo! *muacks!*
LiPing