Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing. You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

How Is Your Inner Child?

and here's e Princess Angel in all her TUBBY glory! she is soooo chubby! btw, good news to share: Angel has received her liscence from AVA! whee.. well it IS good news cos she's not a HDB approved dog! but then she's zpuny for a cocker spaniel.. so we got a letter from e vet and tried our luck! *muacks!*

teeny weeny sweaters!
this one's for giving to e place i was attached to.. sort of like a thank you card.. i'll be making a skirt out of pink paper and tt's e card part.. where e writing goes. hehe
this is Ailing's pink hair.. the foam and stuff was really HOT pink.. which cant really be shown in its full glory.. gotta settle w this pic then.. =)

and my shrug is done.. finished it e day after i posted it when it was a 2hr old baby.. e pic's not v clear though..

dearest blog,
it's e last week of e clinicals.. right.. this month's been kinda nice actually.. and e clients have all gone for a week long break. which means i'll spend one whole week with just e staff there. ah it's going to be so QUIET! and i've really grown to like e ppl there. most of them are so cute! i think i should go and get a dip in special education instead. somehow i still dont think i'll make a good ot! ah.. i was kinda sad watching them go home on fri.. and e sad thing is i didnt even get to say godbye to most of them! cos i had to go this assessment thing! ahhhh...
liping

dearest blog,
WHOO HOO! my com is alive and kicking again! YIPEE! dad paid 400 bucks for everything though.. buying 4sets of norton antivirus, clearing my brother & my com of virus, linking all e 4 coms so tt we can all share one printer plus files. right. i am one happy girl. =)
daddy went for a ear op on thurs which was a super sudden decision.. but he's ok now, though he still cant hear.. hope he heals fast and gets his hearing back! his bday's coming and i think if his hearing returms that'll be e best bday present he can ever have in his entire life. *prays hard*

i like my patients! they are mostly friendly and cute, though sometimes i cant really make out what they're saying.. i'm dealing with e more serverly impaired pts with neurological probs and some of them cant even talk. but they're still nicer to interact with most normal people. and my supervisor's quite nice too! and e staff are nice! even e ppl i dunno are nice! and even pure strangers are nice! i like this place! hehe

went w ailing to color her hair.. and i went for a hair-trim too.. her head is now PINKISH-RED! she wanted streaks/hilights.. but they were soooo generous w e hilights it looks like her entire head is reddish now.. hehe but it looks good.. though kinda attention-grabbing! hehe good stuff!

right gtg and get some work done.. hugs, kisses and pls cont to pray for my father! *muacks!*
-liping-

dearest blog,
i foresee a month of mia-ness.. ah my hols have ended! clinicals are starting! ahhhh.... i do hope i get a nice supervisor! a nice tolerant one.. aiyohaiyoh..
angel likes knitted stuff.. and she is forever trying to run off with my wool.. e bad darling..
and.... my com has finally been sent for repairing! phew~ it's going to take like one whole week.. but then... it's been so long w/o a com tt i've gotten used to it liao.. but it's good to know it's finally at e computer hospital!
and e magic white sponge is really magic! hehe it's this white sponge thing tt only needs to be wetted with water.. then it just cleans off dirt on any surface damn quickly! any of whose neighbourhood stores tt sell household stuff should have it.. hehe
and we have come to e end of a v boring entry.. well.. how happy can a person who's hols have ended feel anyway? sobsob..
-liping-

more knitted items! hehe from e top.. suet's xtra-warm-made-with-lotsa-love mittens.. i made e thumb for this one too short! therefore she'll have one xtra warm mitten and one more comfy mitten cos e other one has a longer thumb.. whoops =)
e next 2 pics are my itsy bitsy bag.. it needs a lining though.. hehe i'm using it to store my knitting stuff. =) i like making bags.. cos here in hot humid sg we hardly need scarves/pullovers/jackets.. bags are nice and practical :)
and lastly.. my 3 knitted hearts!e 2 smaller ones are just right to pin onto bags and stuff.. e bigger one has been claimed by angel! she likes that heart particularly and she's forever stealing it when she can.. therefore it's now resting safely on top of e piano.. mum wants me to make more hearts for cny.. =)
ah i loove knitting! heheh it is one therapeutic activity~ bro says i can officially be a full-time granny already. 

and my first wearable completed piece! e minisweater! i love free patterns! hehehe



my little knitted brown bear with a canadian beanie baby bear


the 2hour old baby which will one day grow into a little dropped stich shrug








a knitted flower. ah u get e idea.. these stuff are all knitted.. =) anyway.. e flower has a bobble in e middle.. i love bobbles! and pom poms!


an assortment of other completed projects.. hehe e mittens are for suet who's now in japan.. e puny bag is e size of a tissue paper packet..

dearest blog,

whichever idiot claims that animals have no feelings/sense of space/self etc etc is ONE EXTREMELY FREAKING-RETARDLY-STUPID-IGNORANT-IDIOT! esp if that idiot has a pet! idiots like this are not even fit to be a human.. henceforth idiots like this will be referred to as "IT". IT is one freaking stupid thing. and even if IT thinks ITs friends are e most knowledgable things in e world i'm sure there are HUNDREDS of THOUSANDS of others out there who have done actual research on this subject. and it has been proven that interaction with animals bring about many many many benefits. for those in doubt, check out e library please. or e newspaper. or e web.

ok so now IT's similarly idiot fren rambles some typically idiotic idea out of it's idiotic head. and then the idiot IT happily treats e lamer's words as e biblical truth. oh puh-lease~ if IT actually spends some time watching IT's lil dog, i'm sure IT will realise that animals DO have feelings and brains. not all living creatures are as brainless as IT and co. seriously. IT needs to stop pretending to be so superbly clever and all. there's only so much idiotic-ness a person can take.
ahhh if u have no freaking idea what this is about it's alright. good for you. stay happy. =)

liping.

even princesses make a clown of themselves now and then.. =)

 

Dearest blog,
as lousy as i am with html, i have added 2 new lil items to you! hehe if u scroll all e way down, you'll see a little piggy there.. click on it afew times and it rolls in e mud and becomes all dirty.. den u have to click on e water spray and shower e lil piggy.. then u can feed it an apple! hehe it is kinda cute.. and if u wait til the page loads ALL e way, a little blue kitty appears at e top left hand corner just above the blogger icon. click on it once and it follows ur mousie pointer around.. to make it go back to its corner (sobsob) click on it again.. if u let kitty catch up with your pointer it sits there and does cute little actions! then, it goes to sleep until it's time too place catch again..

hehe i like cats and i like pigs. =) and i LOVE angel! lalala..
Liping

p.s: e prev post was my first testing process of blogging via email.. =p therefore it sounded kinda crappy.. yes i know.

dearerst blog,

test test again...

liping

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my beautiful puppy!

 

dearest blog,
guess who's next to me?? aha it's suet ming the super monkey... ahha rite.. very sleep.. and freaking freaking tired.. cos i was rusing out some report last night and while everybody is still trying to correct and improve on their already quite well done reports here i am slacking when the reports i've come up with are like total crap! ahhh... die.. and mobility prac is on monday... ahhh dieee...
sigh, liping

now this is another lame entry just for the sake of entrying.. hehe

dearest blog,
these are cute raccoons at e sg zoo! e pic quality is not too good cos it's a pic of a pic taken a few yrs ago.. but they are cute! somebody was feeding them potato chips and there they were queueing up for their food.. cool.. i wan a raccoon for a pet. and a skunk.

anyway... this period is totally crappy.. reports, prac tests and exams. sigh. please help me get thru this..

and for dear readers who have somehow chanced upon this blog of mine, please do take a few mins off ur time to say a little prayer for my daddy.. his hearing's getting worse, and his hearing aid's not helping much anymore.. even though it's been set to about the max it can go.. and it's hard communicating with him cos he just cannot hear us.. it's alright if it's just us, but i'm afraid it's affecting his work performance as well.. and i do hope his colleagues will be tolerant and kind enought to understand what he's going through. he may lose his job if his colleagues lose their patience with him.. and it'll be a big blow to his ego. it's already been a very big blow for him to wake up one day to find that he has lost his hearing in both ears.. and if this hadn't happened, he might've gotten a promotion already.. now it's hard to say if he can even hold on to his job well.. so please, please please do remember my daddy in ur prayers if u can.. no mattter what religon u're in.. thank you to all who do..

Love, Liping 

dearest blog,
why do the words "enthusiasm" and "spontaneity" seem to have died out in most ppl these days? it's kinda sad isn't it? it's like e older we grow the less adventurous we become. we become so used to the same ol things tt we refuse to try out new things. and so we settle for the same ol mundane things day after day after day. even going out to celebrate becomes boring. sigh. whatever. and it's not like i have plenty of patience either.
do this? no. do that? no. go here? dunno. go there? dunno. want this? dunno. want that? dunno. everybody doesnt know what they want or where to go. then what am i supposed to do eh? trying to keep spirits up is TIRING too u noe. ok so we're all hot and sweaty and tired. then just settle for something la! but nooooooo.... everything is wrong.... this cannot that cannot and nobody wants to make up their minds! ahhhhhh

it seems like i only blog when i'm unhappy, grouchy, grumpy or whiny. but then it's way easier to express happiness than grumpiness, esp towards friends and stuff.. yep so here comes all t grumpiness and whininess. rite.

oh yesh.. xr & me are gg to thailand! whee.. hehehe i like thailand. e ppl are nice and welcoming.. well at least, most of them are. yepy yep..

and it's joycelyn's bday today! ahhh.. my lil fluffy lamb! hehe tt's "xiao mian yang" cos she's so sweet and lambish~ yy and i are meeting her for dinner on sat.. i hope this celebration goes better.. yep.

and hk and joycelyn are gg to rebond their hair.. i cant decide if i should too.. i need a haircut though.. and i wanna color mi hair~ but then clinicals are starting..

i wanna go to kbox.. and swimming.. and wild wild wet.. and horse riding.. and thailand... sigh.. and i noe what i want for my bday! a CAR! i wan a nissan march! it's the cutest car ever! ahh i looooove that car.. sports cars are UGLY and no i'm not saying tt out of jealousy or spite. sports cars ARE ugly. and a waste of $$ and resources. plus they make too much noise. k back to my marchie... i wan a purple one! the light purplish-lavander one.. or a yellow one.. nice... i wouldnt mind settling for a lil picanto though.. anything tt can get me to school and back.. it's like only a 10 mins drive and a 40mins trip via bus/train plus a 10mins walk. how sick is tt?

e princess is sulking like in e above pic now.. and she's all curled up on her lil blue bed.. she's sulking cos i tricked her into bathing. she really doesnt like bathing and i dunno y.. it's such a hot day i should think she should be grateful for a nice cool bathe! i really suspect she's got cat genes in her.. she is perfectly beautiful! =)

anyway.. right.. it's time to go finish up my gandhi report and whatever else i'm supposed to do.. argh..
kk
bye!

Love, Liping

 

dear blog,
i want a lap toppie! and one of those cool foldable beds with rotatable tables! they're on show at imm.. hehe and i want to go to spotlight! and chinatown.. argh.. and i seriously need new slippers and sandals and heels! that naughty princess of mine has destroyed 4 pairs of MY footwear! she doesnt even sniff anybody elses' la! wah my attitude dog.. hehe i like~

argh... i still think this crazy ot course happily assumes we ALL have NO lives! argh.. and therefore.. it bombards us with nonstop projects and tests and reports and presentations and more reports and more projects and more presentations. it's NEVER ENDING!! oh gosh.. i wanna die.. and i wanna bring angel to e beach to swim! ahhhhh...
no time no time.. i hope november comes soon.. and never ends! grrr...

tummie rubbie pleasie mummie??

yep yep hehe =) i do so love my princess..
hugx
Liping

what's over is over isn't it. we don't owe each other anything now. you have your happiness and i have my princess.. focus your efforts on entertaining her instead.
take care.
lp

 

 


fuzzy buzzy peachies 

 


some of e first things i've knitted.. hehe 

dearest blog,
there is a saying that goes.. " it's better to forget and be happy, than to remember and be sad."

when u remember the past u may feel remember the anger or the happier times before the anger. but i do believe u never felt the sadness. or the pain. cos when u left u were already with someone else. whom you could share ur feelings with. and whom u WANTED to be with. it was something u wanted. and u moved on to happier times. and since u're happily in ur happy life now, y keep travelling back to the past?
have u ever thought about how i had to manage? do u know who was there to share my inner most feelings and pain? NO. you do not. so please please stop preaching about how u wanna help etc etc. can a broken mirror ever be fixed? can a broken heart ever be truly fixed? can u even TRY to understand how u would feel if SHE now tells u she's fallen for someone else and that if she never tells him her feelings she'll regret it her whole life? and that is WHILE she is STILL WITH YOU. using u like a freaking spare tire? one day :"i've given up on him, i'll try to stay with you." 2 days later:"it's no use we'll never work out". then a few days later it's back to i'm sorry lets be friends. do u klow what kind of emotional hell that is?
hearing the other guy telling his frens about presents she's given him, not knowing that you're just there.

do you NOT UNDERSTAND that while i was alone you had already found another person to share your hurt with? to focus on and to help you along? friends are friends but there's a reason why a significant other/ better half etc is thus named! i do not deny that they were the ones who helped me up and were constantly there at the expense of their own time, but ultimately deep deep deep down inside i was ALONE.

yes so i did betray your secrets. did u not tell stories about me too? about how much u'd suffered in my possessive hands? a human will always be human. what did u expect me to do? i am no saint. and if u could have totally ignored my feelings then, why are u suddenly bothering now?

u have changed. precisely beacuse u do not feel the same way anymore. dont u understand??

yes life is good for u now. tt doesnt mean u have to make everybody else's life good too. u dont have to feel sorry or guilty or whatever. cos what's been done's already done.

it's not like i'm freakingly miserable now. no matter what happens life goes on and either u move on with it, or u stay trapped in the past. and the past is not something i ever wanna revisit again. i have moved on. the pain does still exist, and i do not know if it'll ever fade, but it is not affecting my daily life. the mind is a great thing, and bad memories can get subconsciously frozen somewhere in the labyrinth of memories.

another quote that xinrong once quoted: "what they cant feel, they cannot understand."

-liping-

dearest blog,
me tired! very very tired... ahhhhh dead..
lamer here lamer there.
gosh.
bye~
i do not like Highly Retarded Suckers. grrrr YUCKS!

dearest blog,
it's finally finally over.. so i guess i should be happy now.. though i dont exactly feel like rejoicing~ oh well.. life goes on.. and on and on.. ahha and anyway we're jsut ordinary ppl leading ordinary lives. or at least i am.. and i dun want it to change. i suppose..

*take care.. and drink lots of water.. and maybe when enuff time has gone by we can finally think back of those days and smile.*

-liping-

dear blog,
should i or should i NOT reply to him? half of me wants to and the other half is afraid to. i dun wanna make things even worse.. or end up digging up hurtful memories of the past.. i dun wanna change my impression of him and of us in the past..

and i know that the person i'm still missing is not the present him, but the him of the past. the unscheming faithful him who would really do anything for me. yes.. there was once a time when he was like that. though tt was really a loooong looooong long time ago.. so what good will it do to bring everything up again? he already has a partner.. and if i'm not wrong its the same person whom he dumped me for. so i still dont see what's the point!

it's so much easier to forgive... but it's kind of impossible to forget.. if it's just forgivness he want.. i've forgiven him long ago.. and i hope i've been forgiven too.. i know i wasn't a good gf.. but at least i never cheated on him in thoughts and in action.. the hatred's gone.. but the hurt hasnt. really.. and reading his messages just makes me think of what might have been..

i'm glad the sars thing broke out when it did. cos the extra month of holidays gave me another month to lock myself in my room and cry it all out.. 3months. it took me 3 months of crying every night.. and sometimes in class.. in places we used to frequent.. but the friends that i'd forgotten then didn't give up on me.. and i'm glad i had them.. everyday then was like a show i had to act out.. do u know? but then.. it doesnt matter anyway now.

i dont understand guys.. really i dont. when we were together he used to like yishun where she stayed. so what's the point of being more alert in yck now? i really really dont understand.. there's no point in bringing up the past again.

i'm just so afraid that meeting him.. or for that matter, any form of contact with him will just turn me into a freaking wreck once again. the situation between mich and her ex doesnt seem to be doing her any good.. even now he's still hurting her with his selfishness.. i'm just so afraid that i'll lose all resolve if i see him again... the him that exists in my dreams and memories is still the sweet and loving him.. so how can i face him now as a stranger?

love,
liping

to: a certain someone...

if u've somehow managed to find ur way here then i guess i'm glad u'll be reading this.. i couldn't express my feelings in friendster. but then i do wanna get it off my chest and a part of me has never ever forgotten u. but i know we can NEVER get together again.. u wouldnt want it. and i can say neither do i.. though it's still a struggle.. even after so long.. how can i ever forget this piece of my history? there were happy memories and there were sad ones. and the hurt still exists. do u know that i went about without feelings for the next 6months after that? even now i just subconciously shut out all sad memories and events.. yet because it's locked away so far back i cannot reach into me and dig out those memories. and get rid of them. do u know that.

do u know that when i saw that i saw that i had received a msg from a justin i couldn't believe my eyes. do u know that when i clicked on the link my heart was thumping like mad. do u know that i was crying while reading ur msg? do u know that it still hurts so much in the night. do u know that the little jumping bean we bought suddenly hatched into a moth after i'd ignored it for 3months. do u know how happy i was when it hatched? but i guess u'd thrown ur beans away. do u remember the hamster chestnut i bought with u? it died.. exactly 2 yrs later... do u know that i still have whatever u gave me that i hadn't thrown away in our quarrels? do u know that i was so horribly heartbroken when u said maybe one day u'd learn to appreciate the gifts i'd made for u. each grain of rice was filled with my love for u. and u threw it back in my face. do u know how hurt i was when u accused me of trying to ruin ur friendshipp with kenny when i truly did symphatise with him and at that point of time i was able to relate to him cos we were both sufferring? do u know that when u said "good show" and walked off you broke my already shattered heart? do u know that i still have the letterbook we once shared and the few letters u wrote. i cannot read them without crying.. even now.. i've tried but i cant. they still bring back too many memories.. and empty promises.. the bear and the cushions u bought for her... the presents u were already giving her.. the feeling of finding out that u were just keeping me for a spare tyre if u were rejected again..

i've always wondered if u still remembered me.. and wondered if we could ever be friends again.. and i've always though the answer was no. yes i remember that night we met. and i am still unsure if i hate u. most of the time i dont. i really dont. i've even prayed for ur happiness with whoever u have chosen. i dun mean to sound all pathetic and lovesick.. but i do need to get this all out.. and it really feels much better now.

i know i had my faults too.. and that the more i tried to squeeze in the more u wanted out.. but i really never meant to do so out of spite.. i guess i was very insercure.. but then.. the more u tried to get away the more sercurity i needed..
i have passed my driving.. i passed 2.5 months ago.. and i cannot reply ur msg. not becaused i'm pissed. but because i'm still confused.

we have had happy times and memories.. but if i had a choice to turn time back.. i'd choose to forgo getting involved with u.. so that we could retain the feelings we'd had for each other. the magic of a crush untainted by the hurt of anger, betrayal, jealously and spite.. and by the unkindness and mean words of others. and maybe if we hadnt got together i'd still have the heart and courage to love another guy without the expectations and comparisons tt just pop out subconsciously. and i've never found u ugly.. u are not ugly..

young.. and foolish.. and childish.. i'm not so young now.. but still as foolish.. but i'm glad to have heard from u.. we may never again be friends.. but at least there's finally a closure to this chapter.
love,liping

spent a month there with them.. the flowers were PRETTY! and the houses are NICE! thats the ONLY thing i like about europe. the people SUCK.. stoopid rascists

the house my cousins were living in in belgium for 2 yrs

MORE pics of the princess... enjoy!

Dearest blog,
hehehe phew! i finally managed to change the stoopid language settings back to chinese! whee! angel is FAT! and she's going on a hunger strike.. aiyoh.. she's soooooo cute and i'm so freaking in love with her! *squeezes angel's little stumpy tail~* ahhhh i'm in luRve! with my puppy!

poor chestnut in her little coffin.. she spent exactly 2 years with me..

sad.....

hiah~ time for me to get down to some serious studying. but i just can't switch to "study" mode! i think i'm going to have to repeat next year. sigh. i am so so so so sick of life and everybody! think i'm suffering from a SUPER early menopause or something. i'm becoming increasingly irritable and grouchy and unsociable! and i just CANNOT talk to old folks! hiah. sooo tired.. and i keep getting tummyaches at this time! what's wrong with my freaking body heh?

think i have to go on a diet soon! i'm turning into a humongous big fat pig! die.. it's soo easy to put on weight, but so hard to lose them. sick sick sick!

puppy angel!

and i nearly got SQUASHED into mush by a humongous truck! just bcos i'm a newbie driver doesn't mean i'm supposed to be bullied like that!

well. i still can't get this thing to change back into english. and it's driving me nuts!
my very naughty angel peed on grandma's bed!! and the poor darling got a bad scolding from me cos she also pooped on the floor and my dumb brother opened the door which just spread the poo all over my floor like peanut butter! argh~
feeling so guilty now cos angel looks so sad and depressed. she's gone to sleep in a little corner. =(
school ends in 4 weeks! thats like "HIP HIP HOORAY!" then it's 2 months of hols unless i get a supp paper. and i wanna go learn bike! but daddy refuses to let me. hiah~
i actually had lots more stuff to type out.. but then i forgot everything i wanted to say. so well.. might as well end it now. hehe
good night!

AHHHH! how on EARTH do i convert the home page of blogger.com to ENGLISH? the freaking thing is in chinese now and it looks so wierd and i cant change it back no matter how hard i try! grrrrrrrr...........